Day 2

I did day 2 of the insanity thingy today. Then I did the 3 weeks to a running habit at lunch. I should definitely be sore tomorrow. Day 3 says recovery...but my friend says it is still hard. I am hoping not too hard. I still have my alarm set for 5:30. So I will get up and do it. I did not eat very much today. I need to go make some food. It is just hard because I am not hungry. Tomorrow, I will also try to spend time with my hair and may do make-up. I worked with the foster puppies today. Still not thrilled about the lead. Unfortunately it is way too cold to spend too much time outside.

Changed my availability at the part time job. He scheduled me for every single day that I said that I could work. Grrr. Need to talk to him. But for now, yeah...money.

New Year

Last year was great. I am not one for making "resolutions" but having a week off with nothing to do leaves a little time for self reflection. So I have some goals. I seem to have gotten a little off my game. I need to get back to me. Now this is going to be tricky because I have a pretty strict budget. Paying off bills so that I can move somewhere temperate is pretty important. So here are my new goals.

1. I love to dance. I have no friends that like to dance. So I need new friends. There are tons of dance meet ups that I have wanted to try. They are more like dance lessons because they cost $10 a pop. So I want to attend at least one per month. Salsa, two step, hula, etc.

2. I have hobbies that were very important to me that I have ignored for a decade. So I want to get back into them. So IPSC here I come. For those that do not know, google it. It is a form of competition shooting. I have a very nice pistol that I never use. That is about to end. One reason that I picked Texas over California was due to gun laws. And then I have only been shooting once since moving here 4 years ago. Not acceptable.

3. I feel bad about myself due to my weight, so that has led to me really not taking care of myself. So I need to start dressing for the position that I want and trying to look my best at all times. That means that I have to start getting up early enough to blow dry my hair and put on make-up. **shudder** Additionally, I need to find a hairstyle that looks professional and will take the ponytail thing for working out. This needs to be done in the first quarter of the year. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know.

4. Speaking of positions, I really like my job. But the company that I work for has different ideals than me. For example, they are giving us Saturday off for Christmas and New Years next year. Oh and Sunday off for the 4th. Seriously, I always get those days off. Everyone in the company does. Gee, Thanks. So I need to make myself very marketable professionally. This means that I MUST pass the CPA exam. There is a lot of competition out there, I need to stand out.

5. I need to spend more quality time with my dogs. Bruno gets flyball and Boone gets...Hell if I know. He seriously needs to have something. It may just be that everywhere that I go, if dogs are allowed, he gets to come. It is may be that I shall start jogging and he can be my wing dog.

6. Speaking of weight and jogging, the Grand Canyon has been put off, but it is still happening. So I need to get healthy and in shape for multiple reasons. I need to be able to hike in and out of the canyon without keeling over. I need to be able to run in flyball so that Bruno chases me and is excited about playing. I need to feel sexy and desirable so that I can date.

7. Speaking of dating, I need to start. My last break up was kind of tough on me. I then started up with an Ex again. I have been hiding in this "relationship" with my ex because I am afraid of being hurt. So, I need to have one date this year. And I mean an old fashioned date. He picks me up, takes me to dinner and maybe dancing and then takes me home. My last friend lived away, so he kind of stayed at my house and we really never had any dates.

8. I did fairly well with finances last year. I think I paid off 3 debts. I want to do at least 3 this year. This will be tough because the CPA exam is expensive and so are the review courses. But I should get a raise this year at my company. I should probably get additional money when I get a job at another company.

9. I want to go away for Christmas. I am agnostic so it means nothing to me. I feel it is entirely too commercialized and tends to victimize people that are single without kids. So, I decided to go to Hedonism. Now this may change because I have a friend that I will ask to come with me. So I may find another all inclusive resort that is adult only but not clothing optional. She would not like this.

10. My car is not in the best shape. The warranty is gone. So I need to get a hydraulic jack and some jack stands. So that I can replace the oil pan gasket and be prepared for additional repairs. Oh yeah, I need a need rotor for the passenger side brakes and I need a ladder to fix the light in my kitchen. So I need to buy some tools and fix some stuff. This will also happen in the first quarter.

My fitness goals are completely separate. They are on a different blog. (when I feel like writing them) but I will complete Insanity once and maybe BFL once. My finance goals and fun goals will keep my from wasting all my cash on beer and bad food choices.

This is the year that I get back to me. This is the year that I become the strong, sexy, fun loving person that I am. No longer will I accept doing stuff that others want to do, instead of doing what I want to do. This is the year that I stand up for me and what is right for me, instead of what is right for my friends. It is going to take making some new friends. Going to the right places and doing the right things. Back to being me. Anyone up for my 2010 roller coaster ride?

Ch Ch Ch Changes

Changes

Changes are necessary. Things are so different here in Dallas. There have been things that I have missed so much. I used to have this friend,Jill. We went dancing all the time. Just me and her. She was in a relationship. I wasn't. I also wasn't interested. We would go to a club and drink water and dance. Just me and her. We would ignore the guys and just have fun. I miss that.

Tonight was my company Holiday party. Pretty dress, check, fuck me shoes, check...dancing partner....totally missing. It sucks. There is a part of me missing. I am not necessarily looking for a relationship, but I would so love to have dancing back in my life. Last year I went with a guy I was dating. But he didn't dance. Those of you that know me well...yes I dated a black guy that did not dance. What the hell????

So, time for a change. My life could be so much better. I am getting in shape and much happier than I have been in a long time. So time to branch out. There is a couple meet up groups I have been cyber stalking. I am going to attend some. Salso, cha cha here I come. I will dance a couple times a month. I will find friends that like to dance. I will find a guy that likes to dance. Looks like Little Ring is back on the market. Look out Big D. A mini Texas Tornado is on the move.

big mouth

Me and my big mouth. Sure, let's go hike the Grand Canyon. I am going to be in shape this year. I am working out and logging my food everyday. I can do this. Right. I asked the one person whom I know likes to do this kind of stuff. Dumbass. We are going in March. Ummm. I am not losing weight as fast as I thought. I am still going to be huge by the time we go. Fuck. Did I mention that I am a dumbass.

So I talked to my trainer. What did she say...bring a back pack to class on Monday. Are you frickin kidding me. I did fast walking on the treadmill today for cardio at a 6 incline. I was about to die. She says that 6 should be a minimum. I should be doing an 8. Lord someone shoot me. Open mouth insert foot. Like it or not... I am backpacking/camping/hiking the Grand Canyon this year. So if you hear of some hiker getting stuck in the grand canyon and having to be rescued...yeah that is NOT going to be me.

Flyball

I am so excited for Flyball on Sunday. I think that Bruno is going to have a great time doing this. I hate having to wait for stuff like this. Oh well. I have a grand opening at a dog training center on Saturday, Flyball on Sunday, Supperclub Sunday night. I have to fill the composter. Which the grass clippings are totally soaked so it is going to be heavy. i probably will not be able to mow. maybe Sunday it will be dry enough to mow. I am sure that I have to weed whack again. Hopefully this time I will be able to get it started on my own. Busy, busy. Now to hash or not to hash....good question.

Organization

I spent an hour last night organizing the plastic food containers. I have one more box to unpack and then they should be entirely organized. It feels great to have enough room to actually organize them. Yes, Bryan, it can be done.

The dogs shredded the bags of leaves in the back yard. I am going to have to spend some time this weekend putting the leaves and grass clippings in the new composter. I have a busy weekend planned. I can't wait. Tonight I HAVE to get in some extra cardio.

House stuff

Sometimes I love small towns. And to have one right in the metropolis is awesome. Farmers Branch sells composters for $20. So I went to the town office and bought one. I was told to go wait by the receptionist and they would bring it out. She got a call and then asked me my address. Apparently there was no one to bring one to me so they are going to deliver it. Seriously. Wow. Awesome. Especially since not everything fits in the convertible.

Then I went to Home Depot. I actually got GREAT customer service there also. The Weed Whacker I wanted was sold out. So the guy said I could buy the display. :) The other option was going elsewhere or buying a $109 one. This one was $70.

Then I bought a little tool kit. I know I am such a guy. this has a ratcheting screwdriver. sigh. I came back to work and offered it to borrow to the 2 guys that are building a bookcase. There are about 30 screws on the back and they just have a normal screwdriver. They said no. Really. Ok. Must be a man thing. I would so have said yes. smarter or better tools to make things easier. screwing in all those little screws would have sent my forearms into muscle failure. Way before I was halfway done. Sometimes I do not understand men.

So all in all a good day. now to get home before dark to assemble the composter and put all of the grass and leaves and dog poop in.

House

So this house that I am renting has been a money pit. I knew that it would cost a bit to move into a house. but i am getting tired of spending. I now need a weeder so that I can cut down the tall grass in the alley. urg. So off I go at lunch to get a weeder whacker. next expenditure is tickets to North Carolina for Prom.